We have explained to her what will happen. She understands that she will go to the doctor and they will give her medicine to help her sleep. While she is sleeping they will fix her legs so that she can straighten them and then they will put on her "hard pants"...body cast. Lily asked Trent today if it would hurt. It broke his heart to have to tell her yes. I couldn't even stay in the room since I was crying so hard. She is a smart little girl and we can tell that she is really thinking about this surgery.
My big kids are worried about Mei Mei. Reece really wanted to go with us for the surgery, but I know he wouldn't be able to see Lily in pain. It would be too hard on my tender hearted boy. Mary Ashtyn asked if this surgery meant Lily would never walk in her crouch again. It bothered her that she wouldn't. That sweet little girl walking in the crouch is who we all fell in love with. Her body may be different, but it is so perfect to us. It's crazy, but I think we're all a little sad that the surgery that will make her better will also make her different. We honestly love her just the way she is and it's hard to let that go.
After I finished bathing Lily tonight, I wrapped her in her towel and took her into her room. Our nightly routine is to snuggle while I hug her really tightly until I get her dried off. Tonight, neither one of us wanted to let go. I kept telling her I need to get her jammies on, and she kept asking me to hug her tight. I really just wanted to lock the door and hold her forever.
No doubt that God will carry us through this surgery and recovery. He has amazed us with the way that He brought the BamFam5 together.
Please pray for our girl.